hey you

How have you been? I have been MIA, sorry about that. I don't have any good excuse so why bother trying.

Change is all around me. I like it. It is stressful when change starts to happen, but it is much needed and when the process has finished it will be for the good. The changes taking place in my life right now will be great.

After much back and forth I have decided to go back to my maiden name. Every time I signed my name it felt like a lie. I just am not that person. I am slowly transitioning all my correspondance back to the name I was given and it feels kind of liberating.

I am about to move to a new apartment. I have never lived by myself before so this is a huge deal but I think I will be happy! I think it is the next step in moving on, growing. I need this experience.

I have to go back to work... bleck

and that's the truth pfffffft

There is a song that plays on the radio a bunch of times a day. It is called Marry Me I think and I have no idea who it is by and I don't care to know. When it comes on though it has this calming effect on me. Suddenly I am sitting next to a babbling brook on a perfect weather day.

It is 5:01 and I am still at work. yep...

cat scratch fever

I was kind of half asleep... not sure what woke me up perhaps I could sense the impending doom that was about to land on my face. Koopa is a strange cat. He has never had a very good sense of balance and when he runs, something just looks... off. The vet never seems to be worried so I just accept the fact that physically and emotionally my cat is special. He rarely leaves my room because there are two other cats here that are very dominant and Koop likes to make love not war. Ever since my other cat died he just hasn't been the same. He is happy to snuggle and be petted, he just doesn't want to leave my room which makes giving him enough love an affection difficult. So back to my story. Koopa, in typical fashion, is getting restless for me to wake up. He is walking across my pillows to me to nuzzle my head and purr loudly in my ear. I know it is coming. What I don't anticipate is a loss of balance by my less than graceful cat and a big angry, scrambling for dear life paw in my face. Not just my face but more specifically my eye. I know have a mean red scratch starting under my eye which ends at about the middle of the bridge of my nose. He also managed to get a claw in down near my nose. Thank goodness my eye was shut. So 5am wake up call...awesome. I am glad it isn't picture day at school.