feels like the first time

For the first time in a long time I feel happy. Truly happy. I feel confident, sexy and healthy. It is amazing. When I am happy I have less to write about but I am not complaining.

Crazy weather freaks me out. I always feel like it is doomsday, like I should call all the people I love and hear their voices one last time. Right now it is 40' sunny and snowing.

Brown sugar. why do you taste so good. I am officially addicted to coffee. Flavored delicious warm the core coffee. mmmmm

dangling conversations

.... if you know me at all you know how I feel about Paul Simon. He, in my mind, is a genius. A brilliant song writer, an amazing guitar player and his words are the most beautiful poetry.

Like emptyness and harmony I need someone to comfort me.... This is what his music does for me. Even more so when he has a crazy haired tall guy harmonizing with him. I could be having the worst day of my life, I hear his music and for that moment, everything is alright.

letter to Paul Simon:
Thank you Paul.. can I call you Paul? I feel like I barely know you and know you so well all at once. Your music, your voice is like an angel blowing in my ear. You sooth my soul with your sometimes witty and sometimes grim vision of the world. Your harmonies seep into my core and make me at peace with Earth. Marry me?

Bethlynne

strawberry jelly

Dear owner of the strawberry jelly in the squeeze container,

I have been enjoying your jelly for a little over a month now. I love that it comes in a neat squeeze bottle because it cuts down on the sticky mess and Lord knows I can make a sticky mess. I have been using it mostly on some straight up wheat toast but I have been known to slap it on an english muffin on occasion. I appreciate you "letting" me share in the delicious gooey goodness.

sincerely,
the jelly moocher

p.s. it is almost gone so maybe replacing it should be my responsibility but it sure would be swell if you replaced it.

procrastination

I have mastered the skills of procrastination. Stems all the way back when my mother used to ask me to clean my room and I would start with alphabetizing my bookshelf. That would take me so long that by the time I was done it would be dinner or time to go somewhere and the rest of the room would have to wait until she threatened to take something away if I didn't get to the meat and potatoes of the operation.

Today, like most days, was one big procrastination. See previous post.... yeah, car did not get inspected. I used my free time to sit on my cough, watch Glee, surf youtube for music videos and chat on facebook.

I did get up and have brunch with my favorite Guak the Moley and did the dishes so I wasn't a complete slug right?

I am sitting here with knots in my stomach for a couple different reasons. 1. Finn has a fever. I hate it when he is sick and I hate it even more when it is not my night to have him. I could have taken him but that would bring us to reason number 2 for the previously mentioned knots. 2. Henry comes home tonight from the Bahamas. Why would you have knots about that you ask? Well. I kind of drunkenly sent a fb message that... well.. I am not sure how it will be received. I have not heard from him at all today which is making me nervous. Stupid? Probably. I keep reminding myself " Bethlynne he is traveling today and has not had time to shoot you a text or a message back on fb"...right? right?

So I am listening to a Beatles mix I made. It is a valentines mix. I think my head is about to explode with Beatle juice and uncertainty. SPLAT. All over both computers which are both within arms reach. They would surely be ruined. SUN SUN SUN here is comes BOOOOOM SPLAT.... silence.

Listen, do you want a secret, do you promise not to tell whoa whoa closer.... I had a cheeseburger today. It was the first one in a long time. I think it went over well.

Your Love

Nikki Minaj... I can't help it

I am home. It is unexpected but feels good. So far I have been very productive(LIE)

Playing with my music. chatting with peeps on fb and aim

soon I will have brunch at Ruskis and then I will get my car inspected.

I WILL!

and the beat goes on

This is a slow week for me at work which I am not complaining about! It could be so much worse and I would be miserable.

I can't stop wanting to eat these days though people keep telling me I look thinner... weirdos.

I feel out of touch with my music but I just haven't felt like doing anything about it. I used to know everything old and current. Now I only know top 40 and old. I need to spend some serious time with Pandora. I keep forgetting my ear buds to listen to it at work.

upside down and inside out

in other news....

SNOW DAY... well half snow day.
Here is a poem about the state of things

Chips and dip coat my mouth
delicious goodness
Groundhog day shadow seeker
borrowed money, hopes and dreams
miss my babeski 6 days now
applebutter guakles fun
Bill Murray makes me happy
parking garages not so much.

about time sister